I had to eat every last drop, every last crumb, and was rarely allowed to not finish. I was a stubborn little girl though and if I really hated something, I would outright refuse to hate it - usually liver as well as pork & beans.

But - I was made to feel guilt & shame if I wasted food.

I was not a fat kid at all - very active and wasn't fed enough to be fat, and we didn't have junk food and candy in the house.

But unfortunately, I had parents and grandparents who constantly told me I was too fat, too tall, feet too big, and too 'boyish' for a girl.

My relationship with food was nearly feral because of it.

And it got worse: from the time I was about 13, I was put on every fad diet their was that my mom would find on the cover of every fucking Woman's World magazine, and I was given amphetamines on top of that.

I hate food. I love food. I hate diets. I hate parents who make their kids feel like they are less just because they aren't 'typical'. It wasn't my fault I was a larger than average female. I didn't ask to be 6'0, have size 13 feet, and a broad muscular physique.

I was shamed about that my entire life because I was raised by bullies who thought 'big' meant you put a 13 year old on amphetamines while feeding her a diet of cottage cheese and honeydew melon because some moron in California had to come up with the diet of the week.