I can't keep up

Posted by Disastrous_Gap_6473@reddit | ExperiencedDevs | View on Reddit | 38 comments

I got into this because I enjoy the deep work. At this level (senior, shooting for staff) I don't think there's any left for me to do. Everything is easy but it's all happening at the same fucking time.

Kube charts are broken because of SA permissions on our secret store. If I change and push this enough times it will work. DB schema needs a tiny change. Easy, push it and open PR. Feedback on another PR, all easy stuff, correct it, push it, the DB schema PR is finished building, I got tagged in a design thread but the discussion is already moving on without me, more PR feedback, address it, commit, push, the kube charts thing failed CI again and I need to change/commit/push it, that design thread is going off and I have to say something or it'll look like I'm checked out, I forgot about the schema change PR and it finished building half an hour ago and I could've queued for the QA environment but now it's backed up, there's three PRs waiting for my review so I can use the time to oh, wait, no, C-suite is wading into eng channels and I gotta make sure I'm seen, design thread is going off again, kube charts failed and honestly I'm not sure if this will just work on enough pushes and maybe I have to tag in delivery tooling and god knows when they'll get back to me but at least the QA environment is unblocked oh shit that was twenty minutes ago and there's people waiting behind me and my deploy failed anyway and it'll take five minutes to rebuild and now there's a meeting for somebody else's project that's blocking mine that I need to be in (mostly to be seen) and the fucking DB schema thing never actually got QA'd it's just been *sitting* there

I'm not good at this. I've gotten better at it, but I still suck at it. I want to delegate it to someone else, but if I did I'm not sure what I'd even do all day. All this bullshit is what my project needs most right now.