Need help of what to do with my Life and continue My Career as a SWE

Posted by DuskyDino@reddit | learnprogramming | View on Reddit | 11 comments

Hello, I just wanted to get this out of my chest, so right now I'm a CS student in my Junior year, 24 years old, and throughout my career as a CS Major student I've taken Java, C, bash, and learn assembly (never coded it, but my teacher talked about the code and what's it about). And overall I'm just thinking of what to do with my life and thinking of bad thoughts like I'm a failure because I can't code like a simple code, or I think I can't because throughout my year I never practice in my 2 years of learning and I liked Programming or I think I do because I like how it does, and I just don't what to do I feel like I should just restart everything going back to everything of learning all the basics again and the problem I have is with practice what simple projects can I do like I hear calculator tic-tac-toe and I have never done them because I was lazy, and I hated, and I keep thinking there too advanced, and I just don't know what to do since I have forgotten all of OOP and DSA stuff, or I think I did, and I just feel stuck like I don't know what to do I want to relearn everything and IDK I'm retarded but reading a book I just can't, I don't know why but reading a book for some reason just doesn't work with me and yes I do use AI, but I never let it code the answer for me, I more like guide it for me to do the answer and I always feel like am I actually learning, or I'm just doing my homework assignment, and I was thinking after this semester is over with I was thinking of using the Claude AI to help me make a road map of relearning my fundamentals OOP and DSA. I guess the main reason I felt this was also me doing Leet code questions like twoSums and Palindrome and I remember palindrome, but I just can't do it at all and overall I just feel like a failure and I don't know if someone can give me advice on anything because every time I want to look up at something like look at the answer or how to do this or that I feel like cheating like I should know this by now and get it done in one sit like everyone, and It's sad to say don't I remember what is stack and heap are, and I just feel like a failure of a student and I don't know.

If someone does read this, thank you for reading this post and have a wonderful day/night.

Also sorry for the grammar and long text and how I write because I suck at it and I don't even know how I passed school if I can't grammar right at all.