Quitting after 3 months
Posted by Lastacc12@reddit | Truckers | View on Reddit | 93 comments
Genuinely depressed. I feel myself slipping again, I thought OTR would help me more than hinder me. I’ve wanted to do this for years & I really wanted this to work but I don’t think it’s possible. I have a ton of health problems already. I struggle with depression, have an autoimmune disease that gets triggered from eating literally anything, & constantly get stomach bugs while driving. I’m fucking miserable out here. I tried cooking my own food. My leftovers absolutely destroyed my stomach for days so now I’m apprehensive about that too. Being so far away from a doctor all of the time is giving me immense anxiety. I think I’m going to have to call it quits.
Struggling-within@reddit
Can you drive an 18 spd manual transmission if so may I suggest the oilfield. This may help you pay wise and its shift work so there's usually some leave way with being near a doctor's office. I drive and work in the oilfield now for the last 13yrs pay is decent 👌 benefits are usually great and most companies have at least payed days off. My current schedule is 20 days on and 10 days off. Hope this helps you.
Packingheat248@reddit
Can I message you? I'm thinking of going into the oilfield but have some questions.
AcanthocephalaNew791@reddit
Don't. He isn't giving the giving whole story.
Packingheat248@reddit
tell me your details then please
AcanthocephalaNew791@reddit
About what? Prime drivers going under whatever they are governed?
Packingheat248@reddit
no about the oilfield
AcanthocephalaNew791@reddit
From what they told me in Mansfield LA. It's worse than otr. True Owner operators make the most. Those company drivers run hard and have down time equivalent to dry van drivers.
Struggling-within@reddit
Is that lower Alabama or Louisiana
AcanthocephalaNew791@reddit
Louisiana
Struggling-within@reddit
You mean where I am employed?
Struggling-within@reddit
Yes
ToeSimilar5163@reddit
Honestly unless you’re in UT or ND a lot don’t even run 18s. Mostly 13s in OH, and the guys down south in the flatlands like TX get away with autos and 10s.
Struggling-within@reddit
You forgot about the northeast thats where I am
Vast_Obligation8213@reddit
Tf is wrong with you? Genuinely... Just looked at your past post on other subreddits and am really confused as to how you thought trucking was a good/viable path.
My advice? Seek out either a therapist or a life counselor to help decide what to do with your life.
Sorry if im being an ass but just looking at your past post and am just super confused
Mobile-Ostrich7614@reddit
OTR is for a special kind of person. Isolation is one of the worst things for a human being… don’t feel bad I did regional for 2 years and I had to leave bc I hated being alone all the time
Dr_Adderall_2000@reddit
I’m with you on that. I am going to quit soon too. Been at it 7 months and had 2 different driving jobs. First, I was in food service unloading fries and stuff for Wendy’s (Northeast local). That job I actually enjoyed but I got fired and had to go OTR at a mega carrier which was challenging for me. It does suck, I will give you that. But I am trying and hopefully I can transfer into another job where I get to smoke weed and go home every single night. The worst part about driving though, is that your truck is a 70 ft burden because even when you do get home time, you need to find a spot to park your rig. My last job was slip seat, so I didn’t have to deal with parking. Many cities also don’t allow trucks on streets and the truck stops either charge $20+ or are ALWAYS full. I live in a hood and I still got a ticket for parking a bob tail on a street. Mind you, I was blocking nothing and was near my complex… also to whatever cop that wrote me a ticket; FUCK YOU! I am not paying it, I am fighting it! A warning could have sufficed and I am already in debt so if I pay it, I am going to be $100 broker because of a rule I didn’t know about…. May you DIE in the slowest most painful and agonizing way possible as your family watches! This is why people say “fuck the police” and like fire fighters instead…. Because fire fighters actually save lives and are total studs while doing it! You just generate revenue while filling cells for the prison industrial complex!
But anyways, quit! And don’t look back. The industry is declining and it will only decline even further because no one is doing anything to fix it.
Shug_Shayne@reddit
Why would you go OTR knowing all of this?
ChaceEdison@reddit
“I get stomach issues while driving and from bad food”
….
“Guy OTR trucking work out for me”
…. This idiot
Also OP, you don’t have to tell us you’re leaving, just leave, nobody cares that it wasn’t right for you
silva579@reddit
Damn Chace got the claws out lol
ChaceEdison@reddit
Sorry, it’s just mind blowing why someone who needs to be near a doctor, has medical issues from driving, and has mental health issues would think that driving all across the country would be a good idea.
It’s like being afraid of heights and taking a job washing windows on a sky scraper
Lastacc12@reddit (OP)
Honestly you’re not wrong lol, i wanted to do this before i discovered how bad my digestive issues were, but i still said fuck it anyways how bad can it be. I also thought I managed my depression pretty well over the years, OTR pretty much brought everything back to the forefront I guess.
DamnedHeathen_@reddit
I've got a good friend that has crohn's, and he's been OTR for around 6 years now. He has his dog riding with him, to help with the PTSD and depression courtesy of Uncle sam, but his dog has the side effect of needing to stop from time to time to go out. Every time he lets the dog out, he takes a trip inside as well. We both have the attitude of nothing in this trailer is going to spoil, so it'll get there when I get it there. If it's late, at least my pants are clean when I get to receiving.
We talk quite a bit, and I know it took him a while to figure out what he could and could not eat, and do, out here. Not sure if it relates to your issues or not, but here's a side quest if nothing else.
rytram99@reddit
This mindset is not compatible with employers. They dont give a single shit what issues you have, they want the load on time.
Lastacc12@reddit (OP)
Simply ignorance. My previous job was a lot less stressful so my body wasn’t as triggered often. I took that for granted.
BearsAteMyGarbage@reddit
If you can land a local job you can be like a lot of other people in other job sectors and still use your CDL. I work 45-50 hours a week M-F, maybe a Saturday or two in the summer and that's it. I use my CDL all the time.
25_Unknown_Devices@reddit
Well this sounds like an expensive experience. Assuming you went through a driving school ?
Jonas_Venture_Sr@reddit
I have not received his letter or resignation yet, so he'll have to keep driving unfortunately.
BearsAteMyGarbage@reddit
HR got their hooks in everything these days I swear
Tru3insanity@reddit
Sometimes its hard to know how your body is gunna react and its tough to get a decent job if you have chronic health issues.
In my case, it actually ended up being one of the few jobs that dont mess me up and can give me a decent quality of life.
Btomesch@reddit
I want your DOT Medical Exam doctor
justdan76@reddit
Good luck.
You might find local work. I eat home cooked food 3 meals a day, and when I have a doctor appointment I tell my boss I have to leave early that day.
Azzacura@reddit
I tried telling my boss I had to leave early some days for doctor visits, and his reply was gold:
"Well I can't guarantee you'll be home on time and that you won't get stuck in a traffic jam, so just take that day off and let me know if you need more hours on another day"
Foodspec@reddit
There’s no shame in throwing in the towel. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Don’t be shamed into working a job you’re not suited for. It’s ok. Your health is vastly more important than truck driving. You have a legit medical reason to hang it up
Chronicxx-850@reddit
I sometimes shit my pants
OMGtheykilldkenni@reddit
I’ve been doing this otr gig for 14 years! I’m going local in May after my first vacation of the year. OTR is not a cure all be all situation. It’s not for the faint of hearts either! Good luck on your next adventure. Hope all goes well for you, you can always change your plans and mind.
Commercial_Common914@reddit
This sounds more like a multiple personal problems rather than it being related directly to the trucking alone. I just recently got me CLP, and this post almost discouraged me.I wish you the best of you, I hate that you're experiencing this.
SpectacularNelson@reddit
I’m 3 months in and got diagnosed with sleep apnea and have a CPAP machine that doesn’t count my hours🫠
FrYoungtrad@reddit
Going otr sounds like pure self destruction in your case ngl
WackoMcGoose@reddit
Can relate. The only kind of trucking I'd ever be able to do, is local delivery that gets me home every single night... and since none of that kind is hiring in my region (let alone as a job that would train me to get my CDL, even the OTRs in my county expect you to be ready to drive on day one), that means I'll never have the chance :/
tae_iety@reddit
OTR is really not that especially, just get out of the truck when u can and I mean go to the movies, a mall, out to eat, ask for hometime and go on a vacation. Other than that it will work out trust me
Sweet-Case-4896@reddit
Depends on the company because the company I was at I had to beg to go home or any vacations
tae_iety@reddit
Thats also true, there are nightmare companies
TypicalOcelot7933@reddit
What about getting your cdl through a community college?
Sweet-Case-4896@reddit
I don’t blame you, I got off the road after 6 six months and I was constantly getting urine infections due to holding my urine long periods of time, I was at a strict company that wouldn’t let you pull over unless it was an emergency and peeing is not one of them, and I am not a guy so I can’t pee in bottles
Bubbly_Advertising50@reddit
Bro go local idk why tf you thought otr was the move knowing that u got sum health problems otr is for folks who love being far from home or got no family life
IDipMyCookiesInWater@reddit
This seems relatable to me. When I started I had to do my time over the road. I’ve had depression and have hashimoto’s disease; which is an autoimmune. I was deep in debt 💸 had no medical insurance. And I got super depressed when OTR it also didn’t help that my fiancée who I had been in a relationship with cheated on me But I needed the money and I made it work! I’m 32 y/o f and I’m going on to 4 year now. You can complain about it or you can make it work. I went from otr to regional to now local. We all know how stressful and hard trucking is and trucking isn’t for the weak.
Rude-Assist11@reddit
Don’t get a job you can’t handle stop feeling sorry for yourself and get on with life the more you find/ look for excuses why you can’t do things the easier it is to stop trying get up this morning in a new body and get moving
Pakman____@reddit
Go local.
Castingnowforever@reddit
You'd probably make a great yard hostler.
nick-james73@reddit
My guy, you need a job from home where you can control your environment and be stable. OTR is the opposite of what you need. Find some online work homie. Best of luck.
Mystery_Chaser@reddit
There are certain prepackaged foods that literally caused panic attacks. I know because I was having panic attacks. Read below get on YouTube and search foods that cause panic attacks and severe gastrointestinal inflammation. Foods that cure depression. You will find what I have stated below is true.
Mystery_Chaser@reddit
Don't quit my friend. I'm so glad that you included the information about your leftovers. Read below if you have time. I wish you all the best.
Mystery_Chaser@reddit
I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling. I feel that you're asking for advice. If I'm wrong keep scrolling. If I'm right. Go to the store immediately and get some folic acid. Foley is the cure for depression. I promise you. It worked for me almost instantly. Vegetables cure depression because they contain full weight. Stop eating leftovers. Reheated meat, reheated potatoes and reheated rice will wreak havoc on your body in ways that doctors don't even understand. Those of us that study health and nutrition do. You absolutely cannot reheat meat potatoes, or rice. Especially in a microwave. Crooked once eat it cold. Make sure it's kept cold. That's why grandma used to make potato salad. She made it from leftover potatoes. Do not eat anything that was pre-cooked for you. Don't eat white bread. Keep cooking your own food. Don't eat pasta. Pay attention to the spices that you use. If it has MSG donate it. Minus sodium glutamate. Die sodium glutamate. All of these things rake havoc with our vagus nerve. Your problem is nutrition. Take my advice and then start reading up on nutrition. First and foremost, stop eating heated leftovers and take folic acid. You will see it will work in a week. Every day take your full acid. Take two. You can't OD on it. It is what builds your brain cells and your neuropath ways. I hope you take my advice. Good luck and hang in there. You're not alone on this journey. I had to learn the hard way too. Slice up apples, slice up grapefruit, make your own trail mix from raw almonds and dried cherries. Put lemon in your water. That will help you absorb it at the cellular level. I could go on for days. Pickles so good for you. If you feel gassy eat a pickle. Always pack pickles. I never get in my bus without three pickles.
Mystery_Chaser@reddit
Go to YouTube and search why you shouldn't eat reheated foods. There is so much information here. I only learned it myself six months ago. It's really helped a lot. I was buying pre-cooked sausages and pre-cooked chicken wings and putting them in the microwave. Then after suffering and not knowing why I started doing some research. I discovered that shit is straight up poison. It's really poison.
Gonzotrucker1@reddit
Give your life to the company store.
XGrimmcommandoX@reddit
I think trucking nowadays is a young man’s game.
Kevo_xx@reddit
A local home daily job with little to no experience is very hard to find but not impossible. I wouldn’t recommend OTR. Most people can’t handle that lifestyle, myself included. But my local job changed my life.
Real_Gift2774@reddit
LOL WTF were you thinking?? Did you think it was going to be like a long road trip?? You live in a box smaller than a jail cell for weeks at a time then you don’t even get two days off before you have to be back out there driving in rain, snow, dust storms, and that’s just WYOMING! “Auto-immune disease”? Are you freeking kidding me? I caught COVID FOUR times in a span of 18 months from standing in crowded receiving offices being exhaled upon by every make and model of truck driver that an H1B can bring into this country! Athletes foot from nasty showers! Food poisoning from Subway after Subway! Hemmerroids from sitting in a shitty seat for years being jostled around on the shittiest New Mexico State highways and I-40! Terrible tinnitus that will be there forever because I drove reefer for way way way too long! God knows what carcinogens I’ve inhaled, imbibed, or absorbed from ten of thousands of gallons of diesel fuel and DEF on top of the cigarettes and dip. And I’m not even going to bring up the shitacular cuisine we truckers are (or were) offered while on the road!
All the shit you talk about? All the maladies you suffer? Bro those are part and parcel of The Life!
LiquifiedMetal@reddit
Is it even possible to accurately or fairly compare subjective pain/suffering? Certainly not with a stranger based on a short post. It's not even apples to apples but even if it was, pain and suffering is subjective and the experience as well as the intendity can never be accurately conveyed to another.
Op is new to trucking. Maybe he would've been able to cope like you if his health conditions has come on later after he was a seasoned driver.
Real_Gift2774@reddit
Thanks Dr Driver. Appreciate you pedantically attacking a single moment from my rather long winded rant against The Life.
Now go back to the No Kings subreddit where others are busy encouraging the questioning of their gender.
Real_Gift2774@reddit
Whatever
CatTheClod@reddit
Auto-immune ≠ covid. and what do you want a freaking medal? what good comes of being a dick to this dude?
Real_Gift2774@reddit
Whatever
Distinct-Event-7472@reddit
Do you know what auto- immune disease is
Real_Gift2774@reddit
Whatever
Oversdub@reddit
Get your self a laveo dry flush toilet bro
Ok-Problem-8359@reddit
Go local lol
panda240ss@reddit
I mean, i getcha but ill tell you this. I did 6 months of otr and left OTR and went local
Lemme tell you im way happier now home everyday no more loves pilots ect
Xx_Frosty@reddit
Stick it out for a few more months, brother. Then apply nonstop for local bids. You'll find something eventually. Also... you should probably utilize your company's mental health programs. Stay safe, driver. There is light at the end of the tunnel
colbsk1@reddit
OTR is for those who want to be married to their truck. Obviously there are drivers out there with a bit more freedom but more often than not most OTR drivers have invisible shackles.
Find a local gig or a hostler position.
Feeling-Cap-7210@reddit
As someone who never went OTR and went hostler/LTL route I agree. Go local OP
LiquifiedMetal@reddit
Best wishes to you OP. I felt like trucking might be my calling but my chronic digestive issues which also impact my memory and cognitive functions not to mention sudden unpredictable trips to the bathroom prevent me from trying. Carnivore diet helped but not enough. I'm relatively better but I go through lots of ups and down, flare ups, etc.
Riyeko@reddit
No shame in hanging up your keys. None at all.
GoMake_me_a_sandwich@reddit
Driving is so easy, man. All you do is sit all day. It's unskilled labor and the truck does all the work. Just be a trucker and live on easy mode and see the country while earning money.
No_Lake_7445@reddit
I wanna quit my job too after 1 week . And I’m not even otr I’m local
lex_1005@reddit
got soft hands brotherrrrrrr
MillliM@reddit
🤣🤣🤣
gnarxkillll@reddit
ulcerative colitis, sibo, depression and anxiety here. get into food delivery, it’ll keep you busy and you’ll be home every day.
MillliM@reddit
You mean like Sysco or US foods? He better be ready for hard work!
Docfuzzles@reddit
Maybe a local CDL job like food service or beverage
rcbrown527@reddit
You got this. Get on some meds for those belly problems. Talk to a doctor before quitting. It’s not the best career but it’s a career. Better than not doing anything with your life and having an okay paycheck with something to show for yourself. I got faith in you champ. Your not quitting and your just driving over a bump
fistfullofpubes@reddit
You gave it a try, good for you. Seriously, most of these lonely bitter assholes that are talking shit to you don't have half the balls you do and would never knowingly leave their comfort zone to risk trying something new.
You on the other hand went out on a limb and found out that OTR isn't for you. That's completely fine, that lifestyle can be brutal and it's definitely not for everyone.
ExplorerImpossible79@reddit
It’s OK to say it isn’t for you, you have the license and can always use it as a backup if you need it or use it to get into a job that doesn’t require driving
UnsureOfAnything666@reddit
Go local food and beverage
flowermaneurope@reddit
Try looking for something local. Like garbage pickup, dump truck, school bus driver. Those kind of jobs will help you be more stable and you’ll still be able to drive.
pingus3233@reddit
No shame in that. This life ain’t for most people, especially if it’s having a negative affect on one’s health.
Godspeed driver.
Maleficent-Yam-5196@reddit
OTR is not the only option bud!
droptozro@reddit
Carnivore diet? Strict elimination diet. Guarantee you're not the only one feeling like this. And you're still gonna feel like sh** while you switch, just look into it before jumping.
Packingheat248@reddit
what company u with? makes a big difference
mydemonishot@reddit
If you can heal your gut & nervous system well enough maybe you can give it another shot down the road?
EitherSwan149@reddit
At least you tried it out and now you know. No regrets!
Went through something similar when I thought I hit the jack pot driving transit in a busy city. Now I can cross that off my list of opportunities and never be more happier to never have to do that again.
w3stvirginia@reddit
No regrets? They probably have a shit ton or regrets…
Neither-Fun8773@reddit
pain