there’s totally sounds like you’re entering a depressive state. That doesn’t necessarily mean that you have long-term depression. If you don’t have a history of depression, make sure you let your doctor know when you ask about your symptoms.

I actually suffer from mild depression so when these symptoms showed up, I thought it was my depression. The reality was a prescription that was off script to treat a sleeping disorder was erasing my ability to have feelings. The prescription was only for two years as recommended by my psychiatrist, but by the second year, I had almost no emotions whatsoever. I could feel pain I could feel heat. I could feel cold, but to function in the real world I actually had to write down everything that a normal person would do during the day because there was no motivation left in my body. it wasn’t that I wanted to die, but I stopped caring about being alive.

It wasn’t until the prescription ended that I realized it had been this prescription all along a side effect. But I never brought it up with my psychiatrist that I might be experiencing that side effect because I just thought it was a normal dip into slightly deeper depression. So our conversations were about my antidepressants.

It took about two weeks before I was hit with a wave of emotions. And I actually had to relearn how to feel. Example taking a warm bath and using my memories to associate contentment. (the bath generates the same reaction as feeling content)

It’s been over two years since I stopped taking that prescription and I have regained most of my emotional spectrum, but I’m still missing some. For example, I no longer feel lonely, but that is not a good thing negative emotions are important. I almost never socialize now because I never feel alone so I don’t realize I haven’t called one of my friends in weeks or months. And that emotion isn’t something that you can stimulate using external stimuli. So I actually have to set up calendars to remind me to do the maintenance of connections.

That was a really long way to say: talk to your doctor, find out if you might be going through temporary depression, and rule out if it’s being caused by any of the medications you’re taking.