Conventional methods are failing me, no amount of reward systems or thinking about my future makes me do anything, let alone stick to it. The only way I do anything is if I physically don’t have enough time to keep putting it off, any more than a few hours until it’s due and I’ll convince myself I can do it later. And this obviously doesn’t work for hobbies and personal projects that don’t have deadlines.

If I am in control of the rewards or really if I have any control at ALL in the matter I will not do it, I will almost always choose sleeping and scrolling over literally anything else.

So I need a way to start, I need a way to focus, and I need a way to stick with it. This isn’t about motivation or even about discipline, I need it ADDICTING, I need not doing it even once to be as difficult as a meth head trying to quit cold turkey, I need it to genuinely be more mentally challenging to sit in bed and scroll than to get up and do it.

I don’t care how unethical or morally questionable the methods are, I need it to work for anything I want to do, I need it to be as simple as possible to get the ball rolling, I need results, and I need them ASAP. At the very least I need to be dragged kicking and screaming through the first few weeks.