how to leave the place in europe you moved to for university but now realized that you can’t make real friends cause the ones you now have are university friends and don’t really like to hang out outside of that and the location sucks and you’ve made no friends in the shared student accomodation you’re living in now and so sometimes you stay in your room staring at the ceiling doing nothing, so you're kinda depressed and you wanna go back home but you left all your stuff there and now that you are home cause you traveled back thinking you were going to go back to uni after a week, but a taste of home has now become an addiction and you want to stay even though everyone has high expectations of you since everyone your age in your family never pursued anything academic or failed to do so and now you don't want to disappoint your family so you're trying to force yourself to go back but now there's even coding and math involved in the very humanistic course that you’re taking at university so now you're even more discouraged, cause wtf do you mean i need to know how to code, i dont give a shit and couldn't care less; and you have dreamt of moving abroad since you were 14 cause everyone told you you wouldn’t find success here in your home-country and so the other option would be to move to another country abroad but if you think about moving again you feel sick to your stomach and kinda want to stay in your home region maybe go to university there or gain an absurd amount of money in some fantastical way to never think about studying to get a job again cause now since you’ve failed and find it hard to do anything study-related, you think that you are not good at studying and feel stupid and want to sink into the void of nothingness for a while, and you are so burnt out that even airplanes make you sick to your stomach because you now associate them with your uni city and going back there?