Thinking of leaving Thailand and moving back to the UK pregnant… am I making a huge mistake?

Posted by NoBus1065@reddit | expats | View on Reddit | 67 comments

I’m a UK national, 35, and after 10 years abroad in Koh Samui, I’m seriously considering moving back to Leeds before my baby is born.

I’m trying to do what’s best for my baby, but I’m torn. I’m a teacher and while my salary is fine for a single woman, it doesn’t feel enough to raise a child. I’ve also fallen out of love with teaching and desperately want out before becoming a mum.

My partner is South African and has a business here that’s only been running a year. It could become successful, but it also might not, and that uncertainty worries me.

Housing has also been really unsettling. We’ve had to move twice this year already, once because of neighbour complaints about our dog barking, and again because a landlord decided to sell a month after we moved in. It’s made me question how stable life here really is.

I also don’t feel I have the support network here that I may need. Healthcare, childcare and practical support all feel hard. Back in Leeds, my family and friends are supportive, financially stable and want me to come home and put down roots.

The plan would be for me to go back with my dogs first, and for my partner to hopefully join later.

What I can’t work out is whether I’m seeing this clearly, or romanticising home… supermarket food, country walks, cosy evenings with tea in front of the TV, family nearby. Is that nostalgia talking, or is that the stability I genuinely need?

I have no pension, no investments, I’m 35, and part of me feels moving home is the responsible choice for my baby. Another part fears I’m blowing up my life out of fear.

Has anyone made a similar move while pregnant or left expat life after years abroad? I’d really value honest perspectives.