My childhood home smells like old people now

Posted by TheAngryLala@reddit | GenX | View on Reddit | 83 comments

Decided to surprise my folks (grandma 89, aunt 79 [not grandmas daughter], and aunt 68) with a visit this weekend. It’s been 7 years since I saw them last. While I had been mentally preparing myself to accept health changes, advanced age, and my grandmother’s slowly advancing dementia… I was not prepared for the condition of their home.

They used to be so fastidious. Clean freaks. No clutter. Everything in its place. House always smelled like lemon pledge and laundry detergent.

Now there’s a weirdly thick odor that I can only describe as “old people smell.” It’s instantly recognizable while simultaneously indescribable.

There’s Amazon boxes everywhere. Half built pieces of mail order furniture and knickknacks. An overabundance of blankets and throw pillows have taken over the living room. My grandmothers bedroom has no less than 5 chairs of all different styles haphazardly placed in it. Clothing racks have suddenly appeared in their rooms to accommodate an obvious overflow from their closets. There’s four clocks in the living room two of which are still in their boxes. The dining room table can’t be used to eat due to clutter overflow. Walls are stained. Carpet looks like there’s an army of children with muddy shoes running laps for fun. The garage has 5 shovels and more garden tools than they’ll ever use/need.

What the hell happened?! These are the same people that raised me to clean as I go. To pick up after myself. To do a weekly whole house once over. To not horde useless junk. To want my living to be presentable if we ever had surprise guests. To be proud of my home and take care of it.

I know it’s not my fault they live like this now but I can’t help but feel guilty that I can’t be around to help them more. (I moved across the country 15 years ago, and moved “closer” a little over a year ago, but closer is still a 9 hour drive away) I’m spending all of today cleaning and fixing things they can’t fix themselves. My soul hurts so bad. I was not emotionally ready to see them this way.