How would you proceed with handling stress/burnout in my employment situation?

Posted by Any_Description_6884@reddit | AskUK | View on Reddit | 24 comments

I’m (37f) with a history of anxiety/depression. I was medicated in the past but for around 2/3 years I’ve tried to manage it myself and it had been working pretty well.

Apologies if this isn’t in the right sub, I just thought the UK context might be relevant as it relates to employment.

I’m under an immense amount of pressure at work (public sector), I manage a service and a small team of direct reports. Our department has undergone a complete shake up, and for the past six months everyone’s workload has exploded due to a bunch of new initiatives we are trying to deliver at pace.

As a result, upper management have very little time to give to their direct reports, so support has almost disappeared while workloads are still increasing. I have not had a one to one to discuss my workload or progress since I took on two direct reports 6 months ago despite being a first time manager…I have tried to arrange these but they get passed over every time for something more urgent that crops up.

I find myself struggling more and more each week, I feel completely overwhelmed with the amount of projects I am leading, and that I’ve lost the vision of what I am trying to achieve because I can’t see the wood for the trees. I am not sleeping properly, and when I dream it is usually about work.

It’s starting to affect my personal life in that I’m finding it hard to find the patience to help out as much with my stepson on the days and evenings that we have him, because if he is being challenging I can’t find the strength to help parent…and I don’t want to go down the path of least resistance if he kicks off about something, because he is six and that’s what they do sometimes!

I suffer from diverticular disease and my biggest trigger is stress, plus I am starting to feel the de-realisation brain foggy feelings that I would in times of depression and I am terrified.

I have an appointment arranged with a mental health service on Friday, until that time how would you proceed?

I am worried about going off sick and making things harder for my already overworked colleagues, but I can’t see things getting any easier.

Thank you for any advice.