You ever see that meme of the person as a complicated puzzle piece, and the parents are sitting on the couch being like 'how come you haven't brought anyone home to meet us yet' or something, and the parents are super simple pieces that fit together?

First, the world is more complicated. The way we fragment as we grow is more profound and more complicated as time goes on. This makes the hole in your heart just as big, but harder to fill because square peg round hole etc.

Second, and most important: you cannot find the other half of the puzzle piece outside of yourself, because it was broken off from the other half of your mind. You can only fulfill that need by putting it back.

Explore within yourself. Learn to sit in silence with your own feelings. If that sounds scary, it's proof you need to do it. And you'll always need to, forever, no matter what you distract yourself with outside, and for how long. This will never go away until you address it.

This world is designed to separate you from yourself. To make you betray yourself and sin against your own internal rules. The way to reconnect with yourself is to simply be. Put your phone in another room, close your eyes and just wait.

You're not looking for something you're gonna consciously perceive, altho some people have that experience. What you're trying to do is disconnect from externals long enough to leave the state of constant fight or flight that's the norm in western society. This activates some of your body's passive systems, including repairing and updating your dna and so on.

Also if you're religious and wanna 'follow' Jesus like he literally begged everyone to do until he died, the way to follow him is to go where he went. Within