Posting this cause why not

I was pretty religious growing up, moreso than my parents. We went to church most weeks, a pretty milquetoast Midwestern Methodist Church that featured exceptionally boring doctrine. No evangelical nonsense, though a few of the hardliners tried, no fire and brimstone. And I wasn't into any of that either, but I stridently believed in God, and that Jesus was literally his son. I got re-baptised when I was 17 and I cried, it might be the most deeply moving moment of my life. When I left home and my brain developed a little and I stopped looking outwardly for meaning so much I realized that it was probably all meant to be metaphorical, but I still despised the online, surface level atheism that seemed to be what a lot of my friends were into. It just seemed so cynical and one dimensional. And this was in the early 2010s when it was in its heyday. I arrived at the basics pretty unceremoniously: that virgins don't give birth, that people don't come back from the dead, that most of the parables were fables more than anything. But it didn't leave me feeling lied to, it just felt like a necessary step in the process of understanding human nature. We can refute most tenets of the core religions with scientific fact, but the more we unlock about the universe the more I think we can identify with why religion started in the first place. There is only so much we, as simians, can perceive because we are primates. Even with the most advanced brains on earth we are not equipped to understand the vastness of everything. There are things in the universe that would seem to be supernatural. Eventually we may develop the tools to help us explain these things, but then you run into an infinite regress problem. The further we push the boundaries of our understanding, the more we encounter things that we need more tools to understand. Which lands me in the agnostic camp. If the universe is in fact infinite, then the infinite regress problem is real, and eventually I think we will reach a point where we cannot explain things scientifically. The idea of an infinite universe is arguably supernatural, our brains are not equipped to compute something like that. We visualize it in ways that make sense, but the true scale is ultimately unknowable. So while there is not an omnipotent, om I present God calling the shits, there is some power at some point that we will find ourselves incapable of computing. I guess that's what I'd call God.