Anon watches a movie

Three years ago, I used to go to a library a lot. One day a cute girl approached me and handed me a flyer for a book club. I went, and it was basically 13 girls and not a single dude. They mostly read fiction about feminism, minority struggles, and LGBT stuff. I do not read that. I read almost only nonfiction philosophy and psychology. The girl who approached me was friendly and welcoming. For the first three or four meetings, I had not read anything they were discussing. I just tried to follow along, ask questions, and talk about the books without stating my views. Somehow, she convinced me to buy one of the books they were discussing. I did not read it, but I brought it to the next meeting. At that point I was starting to think I could actually date her. She was giving me decent signs. I did not agree with most of what they talked about or the conclusions they came to, but I told myself it was good to get out of my bubble, even though I found the whole thing super cringe. They were happy I bought the book, and the cute girl was especially happy. She asked what I liked about it. I said I had not read it yet and that I had just bought it yesterday. I said I was looking forward to reading it. In the middle of the discussion, she asked me to get my copy and read a certain page. I started reading, and about 70 percent of the way in I stopped and thought, in a low, defeated voice, "what am I doing?". I finished quickly, said I needed to go to the bathroom, and never came back. After that, I started to look for and date men, because women are actually extremely cringe and will subconsciously make you weak and do very cringe stuff.