I cannot receive the dopamine trying to hit there. Which means I'm trying to constantly find the high of life through multiple channels. At the most basic, it has been expressed through overeating, sexual desire, excessive shopping, speeding, marathon biking, etc etc etc

I also have extreme hyper- focus. This can be on a subject matter. This manifest in ways like hobby prep. I will research the hobby (how to videos, popularity, methods, etc). Then research the equipment needed for the hobby (different kinds of equipment, price points of said equipment, ratings of use of equipment, etc). Or something as simple as pouring over every letter of an IMDB of a show or movie, it's trivia, the reviews, etc, all of its actors, directors, producers, editors and their history in the business. The weirdest and worst hyper focus also incorporates the damage to my aphasia. My brain will try to think of a word, let's say it's 'spoon', but instead 'cylinder' gets in there instead. I have to say the word to the point of exhaustion, literally say it out loud, time after time, to clear it from my brain to get to the word 'spoon'. Over the last 5yrs, I learned my name again, how to bathe myself, feed myself, talk, walk- much of which took about 2yes bc my surgery and resulting coma happened just before COVID shut down, which meant no in person therapy for me. I had to learn my family again, who I'm married to, friends, etc. And thank gawd I took lots of pictures once smart phones became a thing bc I had/have swiss cheese memory. We've worked on the medicines to help as much as they can add well. It's been a journey. There are other symptoms that I could go on and on over (Friday marked the 1 year of my last seizure, so that's been a celebration no one thought I would ever see).