You have the choice to commit suicide but it doesn't qualify as a right. A right is really the manifestation of everybody else's responsibility to not violate their duty to you in some way. Your rights are our responsibility.

Your right to free speech exists because I and everyone else have a responsibility to you not to inhibit your ability to speak and to protect the conditions through our everyday actions that enable you to speak freely. (We are failing at this currently in a general sense but this what a right is supposed to be).

Our collective responsibility to you, anon, is to refrain from taking your life ourselves, to refrain from unfairly robbing you of what you need to preserve it, and help create conditions to protect it for as long as possible as enshrined in your right to life.

We, as a society, do not have a responsibility to help you murder yourself or create the conditions that would enable you to do so easily. Your friends and family do not have this responsibility, your community does not have this responsibility and were you to try and characterize it to them in this manner they would be flatly appalled at the notion.

It is a choice you have but it is not a good choice, certainly not a right- in fact it would be an abuse of the rights you currently enjoy to do that in much a similar manner as assault/battery is a dereliction of the supposed perpetrators responsibility to preserve another's life.

Every life is, in principle, worth it's weight in gold and you have made no such burden on the world as you think; you have done nothing so wrong that you are a waste of resources- the belief in such is and only is a delusion. Similarly you don't know who would miss you and it's almost universally a mistake to assume nobody would- there is never someone whose life is made better by the news of somebody's suicide.

You do deserve to be treated with dignity and compassion but I can't do it anymore on my part than from the screen you're reading this on so it falls upon you to seek the help you need. If you have anybody please reach out to them- you might be surprised at how penetrating through the bullshit the admittance of, 'I need help' can be to someone you haven't spoken to in a while. If you genuinely have nobody you can think of to talk to there are places and people out there that are in place to help.

Lastly remember you are full of enormous potential that you clearly can't see- if you take it away from the rest of us permanently you are guilty of robbing us of what you could bring.

t. not a bot