First of all, sorry for your loss.

Secondly, to answer your question: not really.

I've often felt that there needs to be an English word specifically for "the first girlfriend you had, but it was 8th grade so you mostly held hands walking between classes or at lunch, and did the 'if your mom will take us to the movies, my mom will pick us up' thing".

Because I did talk to that girl for a while. She got on Facebook, whenever it became "the thing to do"... 2007? After a year or two, she deleted her account, then came back a couple years later, but only for a small group of family & close friends. I think she's on Facebook still, but she's one of those people whose last post was in 2014.

Now, my "first girlfriend that I actually had sex with on the regular, and I could be alone with overnight"... I haven't seen that girl since 1988. She was older, and had moved out at 17, not because she hated her folks, she was just ready to get on with her life.

She was beautiful, and had lovely hands - the kind of long, string, but feminine hands you'd see playing harp in a painting by Titian... in spite of always having cuts around her knuckles. She was a hair stylist at the chi-chi salon at my local mall, so that came with her trade. When we met he had an orange crew cut like Annie Lennox and this beautiful peachy skin.

Despite my glowing memories, I actually don't think about her much, but yes, sometimes I wonder what happened to her. She's probably still really pretty, although grey, has a pretty wife and lives in a house in midtown Atlanta she bought in 1990 for $85,000 and is now with $795,000. That sounds like her.

As for "the girl who got away"... I used to think of her often and wished she'd email me out of the blue or something. I've just decided that she's not gonna and that feeling is just gone forever.