I'm an American, left the US for Germany, now I want to move back to America.

Posted by CompetitivePost3750@reddit | expats | View on Reddit | 335 comments

Back in 2017, Trump took office and I took that as a signal to leave the country. So I did.

I got my papers and now I can live/work anywhere in the EU. But my career has tons of gaps from when I first moved there, during COVID, and now I've been out of work for 1.5+ years. I worked in tech and do consulting/freelancing on the side, but I'm struggling to even get interviews lately.

I've been staying home and not meeting people to save money and I've unfortunately spiraled down to a point where my mental health is in terrible shape. I came back to the US to stay with family for a couple months while I take a break and save money.

The thing is, it's super nice being with friends and family who love and support me. I have my new friends and professional network in Germany, but it just ain't the same. I've struggled to fully integrate to their culture and honestly don't feel so hopeful about my future in Europe overall. I really enjoyed my 8 years, the work-life balance was amazing, and the self-development is something I will never regret, but I'm at a point where I've lost the vision of my life in the next 5-10 years. I don't know if it's the impostor syndrome, lack of income, and emptied savings that are affecting my perception. I'm depressed.

Anyways, half of my friends are saying:

Man, it's time to move back. We're all here.

The other half is saying:

You should wait until Trump is gone... the threat of fascism seems to be as real as you said it was going to be when you first left the country.

Part of me feels like I would greatly regret leaving right now because I would lose my permit and would not be able to return to Europe as easily. But at the same time, I'm not able to find any jobs, my savings are depleted, and I miss my friends/family. What would you do in my position? I've been speaking to everybody that I know, but none of them are expats... please excuse me for coming here and asking online strangers for their opinion. Thank you.