Sounds like things are the way there were when I was flying late 1980s thru 1990s. Way more instructors than students. After more than a decade of flying and no jobs I gave up my youthful dream and pursued normal jobs which was made difficult because i blew my 20s and early 30s on flying rather than building a real career. Its all about timing. You can be the most motivated pilot in the world but if timing isnt right, and there is no way to know when timing is right, you arent getting a flying job. Period. My advice for what it is worth...think of another career you would like. Pretend flying is not in the cards for you. What would you like to do instead? Start down that route. Hopefully it is something that pays enough for you to live comfortably. Start paying off any debts as quickly as you can. Debt will end your flying faster than anything. Keep your flying current as a hobby since it isnt paying for itself now anyway. Keep looking for flying gigs. They usually dont pay well so its good to have a real job. You may get lucky and find a workable flying job. If you dont find a workable flying job you will be working in something you like and didnt waste your best years messing around with aviation. If you have to forget about flying like most of us did you probably wont miss it much at that point. Sometimes I wonder why I bothered with flying. The answer is that Id hate myself if I didnt try. But chasing flying dreams ruined my love for flying and didnt do the rest of my life any good. The dream became a nightmare. Now Im over it. Its been 25 years and Im only now starting to have any interest in flying again, but only casual interest. I have no intention of getting near an actual airplane again.