hiya,

i thought i’d come back here and give this community a quick update.

3 weeks ago, i moved to singapore, and the day i landed, i was curled up on the floor, fully foetal, bawling my eyes out wondering what the hell i was doing here, wanting to instantly go back home, just crying non-stop. to distract myself and truly, as a last resort to not feel so bloody alone, i posted here — and the comments i received were overwhelmingly kind and supportive. thank you so so so so much to everyone who reached out with a kind word — it truly means so much to hear something encouraging, something kind when you’re down. it really helped knowing i wasn’t alone in feeling the way i did, that other expats, especially ones emigrating alone, felt this way initially too — so if you’re one of them, please know that you’re not alone.

now, onto the update. it’s been three weeks, i’ve moved into a house, have largely settled in. new job is interesting. it definitely got MUCHHHH better than day 1. every day it gets better but then some days i still find myself wondering wtf am i doing here, i wanna go back. singapore is bloody expensive and it’s not fun constantly mentally doing conversations to your home currency. also my coworkers are all singaporeans and they’ve not really made any effort to rope me into their circle — like ask me to join them for lunch etc. i have been making efforts with them though — i try talking non work talk so we can bond, but no luck. i do feel quite alone here, having zero friends in singapore. in fact, it was my birthday earlier this week and i just went about it like it was a normal day. which is fine. but i feel alone. so if anyone has any whatsapp groups etc that i can join to bond over a favourite hobby or something, id love it.

i do think it gets easier with time. i generally like the people and the food and once i have my house set up a bit more, i think im going to start exploring the country.

lots of look forward to then.

onwards.