"I wish....I wish I would have read your scrolls just ONCE"
Posted by Automatic-Adeptness4@reddit | xena | View on Reddit | 22 comments
I havent seen this episode in so long....I guess I forgot that line because I was BALLING my eyes out when she said that....I cant believe she never even read just ONE of her stories, even after she got her back after the lava pit....WTH Xena!!!!???? 😥😥😥
Agent8699@reddit
To be fair, Xena was illiterate for the first few years until Gabrielle taught her to read.
And then she’s probably not going to jump straight into reading very … wordy scrolls which are all about how wonderful Xena is (which would be completely cringe to Xena given her never ending guilt about her evil, evil past). Xena probably preferred reading dirty jokes!
pleasegawd@reddit
Xena read one of those sacred scrolls in The Titans.
Agent8699@reddit
Damn all those season 1 YAXIs! : )
kimberst@reddit
Honestly, I thought Xena was kind of a shit girlfriend. 😬
kcrooroo@reddit
My headcanon is that Xena is illiterate, so of course she hasn't read them 🤣
Automatic-Adeptness4@reddit (OP)
Yeah I remember Minya saying she can read which was RARE in those parts lol
theseedbeader@reddit
Technically she read the scroll on the episode The Quill is Mightier, she even says so. But probably because she was trying to figure out the parade of insanity that she witnessed.
IseQween@reddit
I pictured Xena as listening to Gabrielle work on stories or maybe in a tavern or two, but not really seeing herself as the hero or being particularly interested in revisiting what she did as part of her "job." Sort of like a plumber thinking, "Yeah, I kept that house from flooding. It's what I do. Who cares what type of pipe, wrench or bolt I used?"
The poignant part for me was that in the "end," Xena was giving value to her bard's stories about who she was, had accomplished and their journey together -- not what she herself or anybody else thought. It was like acknowledging she accepted Gabrielle's version, even though it painted a "good" Xena the WP never really saw. Gabrielle always wanted Xena to love and forgive herself. It must have been very gratifying to Gabrielle when she said, "You would've liked them" and Xena responds, "I know" -- an answer from the heart, if not the brain.
Fearless_Cloud_2500@reddit
I give Xena a slight benefit of the doubt because I think part of why she doesn’t read them is because she knows they’re mostly about her and it makes her uncomfortable. Especially because she struggles to see herself the same way Gabrielle sees her. She still feels undeserving.
But yeah, it’s still damnit Xena.
Automatic-Adeptness4@reddit (OP)
Because I dont recall her reading her stories even AFTER they come back from the dead....or idk its been awhile...maybe amnesia Xena read them to jog her memory?
Fearless_Cloud_2500@reddit
She reads them in Kindred Spirits. When Gabrielle wants to stay with the Amazons and raise Eve together and settle down (very domestic) and they fight and Xena leaves, but when she leaves she accidentally brings the scrolls and reads them and reads how Gabrielle writes about their lives together and comes back.
Objective_Twist_7373@reddit
She didn’t actually leave though. They were back in the hut and she read them to Eve there on the Amazon compound.
Automatic-Adeptness4@reddit (OP)
awwwwww thats too precious cant wait to get to that...I vaguely remember
flynnigan14@reddit
She reads them to Eve when Xena and Gabrielle separate at the Amazon village because Gabrielle wants to stay. It's what brings them back together.
Automatic-Adeptness4@reddit (OP)
thank you, the fog is slowly lifting...I somewhat remember her saying to Xena "you read my scrolls?" all shocked but happy
Vorzillion@reddit
I mean, I wouldn't be enthusiastic about reading someone else's diary entry about me either.
Automatic-Adeptness4@reddit (OP)
Its just weird...you mean to tell me the ONLY TIME Xena picked up Gabby's scrolls was to use it as toilet paper!!!!???
Upstairs-While-4946@reddit
Also in my “canon” or “version”
Gabrielle had been writing about Xena before they even met - and basically brought her destiny to her through that.
Who is to say that Gabrielle hadn’t of already heard or read about Xena before they actually physically met?
Gabrielle was so drawn to Xena that it was almost like it was already written in the stars and scrolls.
Again, how I see it.
I don’t necessarily view Xena in the chronological order of the TV show. Ides of march could have even happened after Kindred Spirits.
🤷♀️🤷♀️
Automatic-Adeptness4@reddit (OP)
The Villigers of Potedia definitely knew who Xena was, who's to say Gabby never overheard them speaking of the destroyer of nations.
Upstairs-While-4946@reddit
Tooootttttalllly ☺️
Upstairs-While-4946@reddit
Hmmm yes - there is just no way that Xena didn’t read any of her scrolls by that point.
I think the scrolls are a big part of how they intimately “connect”.
That’s my version of it anyway :)
elusivesanity25@reddit
She finally reads them all in Kindred Spirits at least