((Now this will be pretty annoying to read and is more on the advice side of things, i apologize if this is off topic)) I found this subreddit by watching Endventure, I just found him after months of struggling to come up with a good plan for my future, his videos mean a lot to me. I'm in a tough spot right now, I want to and dreamed of just being independent at the age of 20, although that is not normal for a Korean (both parents are Korean) as most of my middle and high school I grew up with a American philosophy/educational system and was a international student for most of my life. I am going to be 19 next year but I graduated just 5 months ago, all my friends are at some super expensive college their rich parents pay for. And I hated the idea of going to college ever since my parents brought it up. I also don't have much friends around me and a solid base of part time job experience. I like to cook, write, read, exercise, and most anticipate traveling. Thats what I want to do...straight up. I applied to korean unis just because I was told to after my parents struggled to come up with a solution because that is their only solution. I don't want my fate to be someone else's wishes conversely mine just thrown in the gutter. I still cant fathom traveling alone all of a sudden with no experience since in Asia most ppl just live with their parents till like their mid 20s WHICH I ABSOLUTLEY DO NOT WANT TO DO. Doomsday is getting closer as I type, I also need to take this stupid test to go to Australia which I anticipated because while all of my mates were submitting applications my parents told me to wait just for me to go ahead and apply to australia for a nursing degree to become a paramedic. The obvious problem is the price and the idea of my parents just supporting all that dough, IF i manage to even get a acaceptance letter, rn i have a conditional offer. I already have a bad relationship with them and dont want any of their support. THey want to control the path of my life (which i think is fair since they want the "best" for me) and do not want to to go on further I have big dreams and adventure makes me happy. I just need to make my own decisions now. I live in Korea at their house alone (mom occasionally visits) and I just feel so stuck with just 600 bucks and no friends around the idea of just traveling scares me. I need to get out of this shithole of a situation and need some air to breathe like I hope santa comes by chrismas and tells me to hop in his sleigh so I can get out lol. I can be socially awkward or awkwardly social at times but most of me is introverted...I think maybe. I don't even know if anybody is going to read this comment but if you do I appreciate it making it this far. I have no idea what to start doing and even this post itself is contradicting since I want someone else to lead the future of my life or maybe it isnt....idk anymore