Have you ever paid to see a forensic psychologist?

If so, how much did it cost and what sort of work did you do? I saw a psychotherapist for the first time and we spoke briefly about some difficulties in my life. I'm a loner, I keep to my self and am mostly indifferent to things that happen. But things still play on my mind now and then and I'm not a robot, so some things bother me. My life and any difficulties that I have is made more complicated by my offending behaviour and consequent convictions, and this informs most elements in my life. It means that even if I were to confront and address the lingering issues stemming from my early experiences, my life wouldn't be much different. I have ongoing police involvement. Unemployed due to convictions. Starting a relationship would be virtually impossible in my current situation. So I think why try to fix anything if nothing is likely to change. At least for a few years. I've felt empty most of my life starting from when I was a young teenager. I sometimes think that there's maybe more to life than waking up on my own, eating on my own, drinking on my own, travelling on my own, and eventually dying on my on. The issue is the events in my childhood and teenage years and my later offending are closely related. I say that without attempting to absolve myself of responsibility. I want to make it clear that I am solely responsible for my behaviour. But the therapist I saw recommended seeing a forensic psychologist. I don't know if I need to or if I could afford it. She's right, though, my convictions will continue to play a large part in my life and these issues are central to me being able to move on with other things. She said she can help with the other issues but it's more complicated due to my offending behaviour. It took a lot for me to see her and tell her things and I felt like she was just patching me when I got her email about seeing someone else. C'est la vie, I suppose. She offered to see me one more time but I just don't know what I want or need. Have you ever saw someone with a forensic background? What was it like?