Here's something I've said elsewhere, but it applies here as well, since it focuses on the attitude one must have when laboring in a late-stage American Capitalist hellscape.

The owners and their ~~bootlicking sycophants~~ corporate turdwookies do not care about you. At all.

Neither does your government or courts, as they've been bought & paid for by said owners.

They also own social networks & (m)ass media, using them as their personal propaganda mouthpiece.

Your job search is never over. In AWA: At-Will America (99.7% of the population), you can be terminated at any time, for almost any (or no) reason, without notice, without compensation, and full loss of healthcare.

Your goal is to be the CEO of your life.

Your only obligation is to yourself and your loved ones, like a CEO.

Your mission is to extract as much value from these soulless megacorps as you can, like a CEO.

Milk the fuckers until sand squirts out of their chafed nips.....like a CEO.

• Do not worry about results -- "good enough" is truly good enough. There will always be work left undone.

• Treat your jobs as cattle, not as pets.

• Work your wage. Going above and beyond is only rewarded with more work. Your name isn't above the door. You don't own the company. So stop caring as if you did own the place.

• Don't work for free or do additional tasks outside of your role, as that devalues the concept of labor.

• Sleep well, never skip lunch, get enough physical activity.

• Avoid drinking coffee at work for your employer's benefit, as they don't deserve your caffeinated, productivity-drugged self.

• Avoid alcohol and other vices, as they steal all the happiness from tomorrow for a brief amount today. Especially when used as coping mechanisms for work-related stress.

• Knowledge is power. Discussing your compensation with your fellow worker is a federally protected right. Employers hate transparency, as it means they can't pull their bullshit on others without consequence.

• Your first job is being an actor. Endeavor to be pleasant & kind....yet unremarkable, bland, forgettable, and mediocre. Though it may feed one's ego, being a superhero or rockstar isn't suited for this hellscape. Projecting strength invites challenge. Instead, cultivate a personality that flies under the radar.

• Be a Chaos Vulture. Embrace the confusion. Does the company have non-existent onboarding? Poor management? Little direction, followup, or reviews? Constantly changing & capricious goals? These are the hallmarks of a bad company…so revel in their misery. Actively seek these places out. This gives you room to coast, to avoid being on anyone's radar, etc. Restrained mediocre effort will be considered "going above and beyond." Even if you slip, you can easily blame "the system", like everyone else at the place. Every single day, week, month of this is more money in your pocket. Stretch it out as long as possible.

• Tell no one (friends, coworkers, extended family, etc) about your employment mindset. So many people tie their identity to their employment. And jealously makes people do petty things.

• Recognize that lifestyle is ephemeral. Live below your means. Financial security is comfort, and not being dependent on selling your labor is true power in Capitalism.

• Do not worry about "the environment you leave behind" when you depart a company. This includes how much notice you provide before leaving. Notice is a courtesy, not a requirement. Continuity of THEIR business operations is THEIR problem, not yours. They should have a plan if you accidentally got hit by a bus full of winning lottery tickets. Always be kind to your peers, but don't worry about them when you leave. If your leaving hurts their effectiveness -- that's a conversation THEY need with their manglement. The company left them hanging, not you.

You owe the company nothing -- if anything, they actually owe you, given how much they profited from your labor.

Play their own game against them.

They exist to service us.

If you feel it's some type of moral failing on your part, then you are falling for their propaganda. Because don't think for one fucking second that millionaires and billionaires aren't doing the SAME EXACT THING...or worse...to you and everyone else.

They sleep perfectly fine at night. You should too. Like a CEO.

Ok, so that was a wall-o-text....here's a couple of blunt yet kind observations.

First, you absolutely need therapy + possibly additional psychological help. There's nothing wrong with that, but if your emotional foundation is cracked, everything else is a house of cards ready to fall.

Second, disassociate your self-worth from your employment. Capitalism is a fucking shitshow, and failing it in ANY way isn't a measure of your character or self-worth. You're trading labor for fiat currency. Anything else they try to make you "feel", they can shove a pineapple up their arse. Sideways. "The subtle art of not giving a fuck."

Third, get a hobby that captures your interest. Or volunteer for a group that does matter. Anything to capture that energy that you give off....it's obvious you care, that you're a good person, that you want to do kind things with a level of craftsmanship. Don't do it for those who would pay you so little, treat you so poorly, as they buy another yacht from your efforts. You're a "thing" to them, so don't value them. Value those who don't treat you as a thing.