Rose-tinted glasses fell of on my visit home

Posted by BudgetFloor6553@reddit | expats | View on Reddit | 11 comments

Hi anyone - curious if anyone has experienced the same, though well aware of its dependence on family dynamics.

I've visited home for the first time since living abroad for nine months. The homesickness waxes and wanes, but I have been so desperate to get home to my family and home state in the U.S.. That being said, this trip has been awful, lol. The rose tinted glasses of seeing my family have fallen off and I have been reminded of the difficulties and deep-rooted issues that exist between myself and my parents, along with them and other members of our famliy.

In Scotland, I have a very peaceful life with my current partner, where we know our neighbors and our local shopkeepers, we maintain friendly conversation and are working to build our community. I'm unsure if this is just the state of the U.S. these days and I've never been so fully aware until leaving, but people here (including my family) feel volatile, not as friendly or outgoing, selfish? (generalization, I know).

Just curious if anyone has painted this picture in their heads of going home - only to visit and realize how important it is that you leave once again.